A statement to whoever reads this:

If you have friends telling what needs to be done and you don't listen to a fucking word they say....why the hell did you ask? It will only get you "hurt" more if you turn on the people trying to help you. But apparently this will get you some good stuff to write about on xanga- over and over again. To go along with that, if you have someone you LOVE telling you what is best and you don't listen you're bound to get burned.

And now with the sob stories. No one takes pitty on someone who has fake compassion for others and only uses them to get something else they're after. No one appreciates it when someone uses a false pretense to get into someone's life and then BITCHES about what you don't have anymore and how much it's killing you....we get it now you need to. Get it and GET OVER IT!

If you're trying to "be happy" don't flaunt it like you think it will win you some kind of prize. If you put yourself in the spotlight like that anyone who sees you has a right to say anything they want about the situation. You can't blame a person for recounting what they saw if you're the one who put it out there for all the world to see.

Chances are....if you can't just get over whatever your problem is-you're not the only victim. You are making other people suffer along with you because you can't very well have a pitty party by yourself now can you? Quit throwing this shit on yourself and maybe things would get easier. Don't stalk people, don't say things you can't take back, don't use other people to get the answers you don't even want. Be a big boy, put your pull-ups back on and quit walking around like the world should love everything you do. You haven't given any of us reason to think you are being civil let alone to think that you are sane. More than likely you've already lost friends, you've sure as hell lost the person you love, and its bound to get worse if you don't start acting like a normal person. Yes, losing someone you care about sucks and is one of the hardest things to get over, but, correct me if I'm wrong, doesn't creating drama just add to the "HURT"?

Em

P.S. To say you still care about someone is a bullshit attempt at getting others to cry for you. No one is weeping and we're all still waiting for you to quit with the performances. If you cared about anyone else in your life, you wouldn't be where you are today. Way to go.

Because you've all waited so patiently for this update (and because nobody actually reads this anyway) I've decided it's time to quit checking my site for new comments when that's not even fair because my last post was only 9 letters and 3 puncuation marks long.

Anyway, this is whats new with me.

I was seeing a guy and if I ever see him again there will probably be some words thrown that only a very large amount of Dial could wash out of my mouth and off his face as they hit him with all the spite they were intended with.

I went home for a month to see the fam for christmas. My older brother bought a house with his gf. Any chance for a wedding you ask-my family is not one to rush these things or make any commitments at all so getting my brother to actually purchase a house requiring more than 3 months of his time is a big step in the right direction but a little too daring to make anymore bold moves. Other than this, there was not a whole lot of excitment over the month I spent back in SuFu. Typical drama in a land of friends I rarely see, parents left me for mexico, the usual.

School looks like it will be kicking my ass again this semester- three cheers for way to many credit hours!

Well good luck to everyone in school and stuff....and keep your calanders clear for my 21st!!! (Feb. 25th- bar crawl in L-town March 3rd- I hit up Screw Falls)

Have you ever had a person in your life who hurts you everyday? They do so unwittingly, but it cuts the same. Have you ever felt so scared to confront this person because you don't want that hurt any more than it already is? You know if you say something you'll never be right in there eyes-they're never in the wrong.

Have you ever known someone who never says "I'm sorry", who never admits defeat, who never goes out of their way to think of someone else? They put up a front to make friends and then hurt those who actually care. Have you ever cared about someone more than they've cared about you? You want to scream at them to pay attention, but can't find the words to make them understand.

Have you ever put up with someone so long you feel like you have no worth? The put downs aren't much, but they break you just the same. Have you ever sat back and watched a friendship cover itself with hurt and mistrust? You can't recognize the friend from the enemy within the same person you love.

If you read this and you have felt this way or are "that person"-say something. Make something change regardless of where you stand. True friendships should never die.

Thanksgiving was good. I saw some great movies: Harry Potter and Rent. Ate a ton of food. Hung out with some old friends. More later. Gotta drive back to Lincoln.

I like writing in complete sentences.